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Sunday, December 27th, 2009
3:17 pm
On vacation now. I have some public "real entries" I've been meaning to write, about politics, and about relationships, but it always seems so heavy.

From now until Thursday, these are my projects:

  1. Take daily walks
  2. Continue regular research: Fit NGC 3923 with two temperature model, plot power law fits to NGC 3379, etc., fit XMM spectra of dim elliptical galaxies.
  3. Work on independent physics ideas
  4. Apply for jobs
  5. Look ahead to upcoming proposal deadlines
  6. Arrange ride back after New Year's
  7. Arrange for a ride to/from Freestyle Frolic


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Sunday, November 22nd, 2009
3:13 am
a cafeine frenzy amid alchohol stupors

Mediocre night at the dance club tonight. I was on a different wavelength from most folk there. It was very crowded at first, with hardly any room to dance. I noted with annoyance the people taking photos of each other on the dance stage, or dancing with a glass of beer in their hand. Everyone seemed to be dancing so slowly--it was frustrating. They were even getting into dancing to these lame slow songs! Finally I got some space to dance in. But I probably had too much pent up energy... Romantic frustrations plus slow work progress plus a crowded dance floor... One woman told me slow down, that my dancing was making her nervous, and that I was getting off-beat... The last concerned me, was probably partly true--sometimes I do try for syncopation on purpose, or dance to the fast beat (bobbing up and down 2 or 4 times each time everyone else does)... But I did return to the dance floor for some fast dancing later, although I was a little self-conscious about keeping the beat...

Maybe it's generational--kids just don't like frenzied dancing these days... Or maybe it's that my heart beat is always fast--even resting it's 90 to 100, when I exercise it gets up to 180... And my drug of choice before going out dancing is caffeine, while it seems alcohol is the favored comestible there... I guess some regulars skipped out--there's this dreadlocked hipster who always dances high energy, and who drinks Red Bull at the bar... And Crossdressing Black Guy wasn't there either...

Have a lot of thoughts about relationships, though it seems futile to whine about them here... Also of course a lot of thoughts about various borderline crank or crackpot discrete models of fundamental physics I'm reading up about--finding on the web, usenet, or even the arxiv...


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Tuesday, November 17th, 2009
12:45 am
China My China

Last night I stayed up to watch Obama's "town hall" meeting in China, streamed live from the White House web site.

While I've followed the headlines and the op-eds and the blogs throughout the Obama administration, I haven't tuned in that much to Obama's speeches, I guess... While the anger that was omnipresent during the Bush misadministration is gone, and there's some reasonable hope for health insurance reform (but some worry about Stupak admendment), I think I feel left behind in a way in that I haven't felt a sense of personal renewal to go along with the turnover of the country to what I feel is a better path. Perhaps some of that has to do with the state of the economy, and that the recession crimps my urge to jump ship and go off in search of research or teaching with more independence or more concept-laden...

But as an Obama supporter before the first primary votes were cast, my hopes were also that the cultural climate would improve with having an actual smart and thoughtful, empathetic person setting priorities. (I realized that Bush was so provincial he acted as if Texans had invented the unique virtue of provincialism...) And of course the tea-bagging birther types are raving mad about cultural changes in the opposite direction to what they envision... Glenn Beck seems to be bemoaning no real policy changes but the kitchy nostalgic for a world that never existed right-wing propaganda machine that kicks in when Republicans are in charge...

I guess the optimism, sense of perspective, and sense of meaningful community I caught in the China town hall reminded me of some of what I felt has been missing.

I was a little surprised by a few things: Obama's confident strut on entering, his basketball analogies, his confidence that he wasn't going to go off-message if he gave his genuine responses in his own words... Though I wondered if, when asked about his winning the Nobel Peace Prize, he may have had a blind spot--he said he felt hardly worthy in the presence of past winners, but didn't the Dalai Lama also win? In China, in contrast to the US, HH the DL is not viewed as a secular saint, but more like a rebellious nationalistic heathen vampire or something... A minor point, but I haven't seen it mentioned.

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Well, there's a lot more circulating around my brain... But it's getting late. Perhaps now I'll get back in the habit of writing public entries...


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Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009
10:42 pm

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Thursday, October 22nd, 2009
9:21 pm
Fallen Hi Rise

Sometimes I get lunch from a place that bakes their own bread, called Hi Rise. Today was a little different. A truck had parked on the sidewalk and had smashed into the store's sign, which stuck itself to the truck. I don't think anyone got hurt. The people who worked at the store were amused and laughing about it. I got my regular, the number 51 (lox on cornbread). Luckily I had my iphone handy to record the moment for posterity.







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Saturday, October 10th, 2009
3:47 pm
Tosca

Im at the anniversary party for my aunt and uncle. We're in Albany, at a live Hdtv projection of the Metropolitan Opera's Tosca, which has been controversial and even received boos. But I was very pleased to see my college roommate Joel Sorenson has made it big, singing the number 2 bad guy role. I had my suspicions it was him from the start and then googled from my iphone to verify.

Im reading a couple of books. One is the born-einstein letters. It was being given away by the library where I work. Very interesting to see how Einstein (and Born, who gave his name to the rule that lets you calculate probability in qm) thought. Normally I see his essays or those one liner quotes everyone has in calendars but this is more interesting. Real life everyday scientists dont get to be that audacious or have that freedom. Its also interesting to read them rate their colleagues and aspiring scientists who also had to fit into large projects. I wrote a minor proposal the other day but mostly Im hacking away at tons of data analysis and stringing together pieces of code. So Im living more the hack scientist life than the diva but its good to aspire and daydream.

Im also reading Abel's proof about the demonstration that 5th or higher degree polynomials cant be solved with roots as for example the quadratic equation can with the quadratic formula.

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Sunday, August 16th, 2009
2:34 am
rio and dancing

Back from a meeting of the International Astronomical Union in Rio. Rio is a wild place. It's almost too idyllic: beaches (not crowded at all during the week), mountains, lake, restaurants, culture. Here are some pictures:



The conference itself was held near here: a rather nondescript part of Rio, further in than the glorious beaches. But you can see the famous statue of Jesus ("the Redeemer") far off in the background (I couldn't help it but all sorts of blasphemous thoughts passed through my head, like trying to fix him up with the Statue of Liberty...)



Here's another view of the mountain with the statue, from the "lagoon" in the Ipanema part of town, celebrated in song. It was really quite striking: as it turned dark, the mountain was lost in clouds, but the very peak with the statue was lit up with artificial lights, and at first when I looked towards it, it appeared as if it was floating in the sky.

More from the lagoon:







From the rooftop of my hotel (the 30th floor, with pool and bar):



That's towards the direction of Ipanema. The hotel itself was on Copacabana beach. Here's the view of Sugarloaf mountain (tourists go up on cable cars, but I was too lazy--I was on vacation, damnit!)



I also went to the Botanic Gardens. Here is a picture of the fountain of the muses:



You know that acai juice which is so big among health food nuts (and Oprah) here in the States? It's native to Brazil. They have juice bars on every corner selling acai smoothies. After spending hours running along the Copacabana beach (there are lanes in which people do this--and stations of pull-up and dip bars as well) I'd order an "acai proteinato" (acai with protein powder) to replenish. Also great mango smoothies. And a whole bunch of other delicious exotic fruits. Problem was, the menus were all in that bullshit language Portuguese. I was excited at the possibility of tasting the fruit that chocolate beans grow in (which I've heard is quite tasty on its own--the name "theobroma" or food of the gods, being applied to both the bean and the fruit)... Only when I returned did I verify that the "cacau" smoothie I had was indeed this fruit! (And I had a sample of some fruit from a street vendor I believe to have been this fruit as well... it had a bean in it which was kind of like chocolate.)

So here are photos of the morning of my last day in Rio. The view is from my hotel room:





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My regular work has a little more context for me now that I've met the researchers involved in the same subfield. However, I'm still plodding through a detailed analysis of a whole bunch of galaxies. The program gets stuck... some galaxies are slightly odd and need to be treated as special cases. That gums up my programs.

Making more progress on my X-ray binary work. Colleagues have quickly written a paper and made me a co-author (I did some work too of course, but I was not primary author). The paper on the Cygnus X-1 system, which I've written mostly myself, is about ready to be submitted for publication. At the last minute of course I've thought of some improvements.

I've been doing some speed dating. The first round, all-Jewish through jdate, wasn't so bad--I got a date out of it--but maybe I dressed too informally or was too burnt out from my trip to Rio on the second round of speed dating I did.

I may have also been outclassed as there was another scientist (actually two others) there, who work in similar fields--and one in particular has some prominence in the field and is associated with some cool ideas (that I only putter around on in sekrit). I'd kind of like to talk with this guy some more about his work--he touches on that community of cool speculating that includes Garrett Lisi (who I mentioned in a recent entry.)

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I woke up kind of depressed today but I'm going to sleep in a good mood. Partly that's from dancing. [info]winters_chill, who works at the dance club, encouraged me to post these photos of Rio. After a long night of very vigorous dancing, I noticed local poet and personality JS walking through the dance floor. I never interrupt my dancing to speak to anyone, but made an exception in this case--jumped off the stage and introduced myself. Didn't take quite as much balls as challenging Obama to an Oxford-style debate on health care, but good of me to take initiative in meeting someone--she seems kind of a wild woman, but young attractive and gifted is a combination that gets attention. She's releasing a book of poetry next month.

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More random thoughts:

It feels kind of strange to be so muscular these days. I've been working out a lot at the gym, and after 20 years of being vegetarian, vegan, or pisco-vegetarian, I'm eating meat again, and that helps me build muscles too.

It's strange in a few senses. It's strange in the sense that changing one's body always is strange, whether it's passing through puberty, or aging... Growing a beard, changing one's hairstyle, etc., change one's appearance but having more muscular bulk has a different and more basic feel to it...

In high school I was used to thinking of myself as the smart one (or the strange one--but there were stranger, and not as many smarter)... But one oddity of a typical professional life arc is that you end up with other people with similar strengths. I work in a building with hundreds of other professional scientists, people with PhDs as well. I live in zip code 0213fucking8, the smartest zip code on the planet. (Though I often get the sense that many people in the Harvard area are more about class than intellect.) (Yes, Skip Gates lives down the street from me.)

So it's strange to feel that someone's first impression of me might be that I'm muscular.

Also, there's been a kind of groundswell of respect for nerds in the popular culture. The younger generation thrives on computers and hi tech devices--to be good at programming, when I was in school, marked one as completely nerdy, and nerdy wasn't as hipster cool as it is now.

But now people seem more into the shell of nerdiness than its core. On dating sites one will find women write, "Oh, I love nerds! The way they are so tall and thin and awkward..." When I, a robust muscular metamorph, am the actual soul of nerddom... Or substitute "nice guy" for nerd...

I think also some of the function of being muscular is also not to attract women so much as to intimidate rivals. I recently met the current boyfriend of a woman I'd been interested in for 20 years--feeling like I could either cry or beat him to a pulp, I suspect being buffed up made the latter seem more plausible.

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I daydream a lot about history too--in browsing the news aggregators on the web, I'm surprised at how much interest I find in human prehistory.

I think as I age I become more backwards-looking. I have more of a history of my own to contemplate, and less of a future (still, I hope, a substantial one--just less than when I was a kid!) When I was a kid I was fascinated by the future, by optimistic Star Trek like visions. My generation has been pretty disappointed that space travel hasn't panned out as much as we'd hoped (2001 saw no moon bases), but the iPhone is science fiction of our youth.

But now I'm fascinated to read of the diets of early humans: baking mussels, heating stone tools to make them more easy to fashion. That 70,000 years ago humans nearly went extinct. That Neanderthals roamed Europe once seems strange and surreal. Europe's human history seems so fixed to me--we turn places into their maps by putting signs on streets with their names. But Europe was once covered with forest (the only remnant, in Poland, is the beautiful bialowieza puszcza...

And Neanderthals may, like humans, had diverse populations that could either taste or not taste bitter foods like broccoli... May have had at least one human speech gene (FOXP2)... May have been routinely killed by humans...

It's all very fascinating, and I'm sometimes tempted to think like evolutionary psychologists or practitioners of "paleolithic diets" who argue that what's best for us is what we evolved to find best for us tens of thousands of years ago...


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Friday, July 31st, 2009
11:21 pm
Pictures of me hanging out with the famous and infamous Garrett Lisi, who [info]hyperina kidnapped. Lisi gained attention last year for being the surfer physics dude who published "An Exceptionally Simple Theory of Everything" attempting to subsume the Standard Model of particle physics into a form of the E8 exceptional Lie Group.



Having pizza with the surfer physics dude



In the lobby of the Center for Astrophysics, with portraits of past heads of the department.



Me in my office, doin' my work


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Sunday, July 19th, 2009
12:22 pm

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Sunday, July 5th, 2009
2:22 am
dancing report

Saw the Boston fireworks from the roof of the Center for Astrophysics.

Then went dancing to '80s music. Gah. My moves, at first, were too goofy. When I try to rev up and dance fast, I sometimes end up acting like I'm skipping rope real fast--just bopping from side to side. But later in the evening I rediscovered full body motion, and that was cool. At first when I arrived, the club was pretty empty. Most people were still coming back from watching fireworks. There was enough room on the actual dance floor, not just the stage, to dance. I danced near a couple of attractive women at first, but then the stage beckoned... [info]winters_chill was there, as usual, very friendly. It was the birthday of the bartender Terri, and Crossdressing Black Guy just wore regular clothes--a T-shirt that said, "Heart your Bartender"...

Anyway, it was some needed exercise.


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